"people just simply cant help themselves but put me down under.
but i will remain on my ground"

"though you're impossible for me,
i still do hope
the one day in my dreams will come(im dreaming am i?)"

after months of using the previous blogskin!
i FINALLY CHANGED! ;D

hehhh,
i remember th time when i first set up that skin
and its navigations.
people cant help but keep on saying.
"its too simple!"
hah,maybe im just too complicated in my previous skins.

this one is simple.
but sure do takes a hell load of time to complete.
gee, thnks so much computer.
you "NOT RESPONDING" countless times really paid off!
PHEW! (:
glad that one's overrrrrr.

i pass my HIGHER MALAY PAPER! (:
well, i just gotten Paper two so jyeaaaa, at least B4.
68/110 b t w.
and now im starting to wonder, is Higher Malay any use?
because i personally think that i can score better for English.
PFT!
maybe i can score better for both.
well,just maybe.
uh,uh! (:

Mid years are almost here.
and im starting to MUG like craaaaaaaaaazayeeeeeeeeee arseeeeeeeeee bitches!
haha.
im having fuh-fuh-funnnnnnn in school nowadays. ;D
because theres always 4D
and retarded arses like SOFIA and SHERRA and KENDRA and JIA HUI. ;D
haha,
"PORK PAU!"
heh (:
inside joke,get lost and laugh to yourself. ;D

oh!
i got a freaking Distinction for the MYOB thingy i told you about. ;D
haha,nice huh?

something EMBARRASSING happen in school today.
BUT, i wont tell.
hehhh, people who sees me inappropriate today in th afternoon, heh.
sorrryyyyyyyy and nasib baik sofia nampakkk siot.
kalau tak da aku masuk oral gedebak gedebuk ;D
haha.

i love ma skin somehow ;D
like nice like that uhhh.

my weekends are nice.
i bought two new HAMSTERS! (:
which adds on to th other two that i have at home.
ICHIP and ICHOP got rival alrd uhh!

i suddenly got the urge to lepaaaaak with someone new. (:
just anyone.
but new,like those i have not yet lepak with them ever.
lepak is nice once in a while until you got bored of it. (:

and i want to learn those Screamo songs.
those Post metalcore songs (:
they seem cool like o m g w t h! ;D
at least my sister is having a headstart as she have the rockstar voiceeey alrd.
while me?
haha,
in a while you'll hear my voice hoarse,
really really hoarse.
due to too much screaming+singing. ;D
oke,not.
this takes time oi.

until whenever people. ;D
LOVES !

"and i miss not talking to you.
until next weekend then,kawan ;D"

i personally think mean people should just get a freaking new life
or do something beneficial or whatever apart from being mean.
like seriously.
"MEAN PEOPLE SUCKS"
well,thats a fact! in fact i have the badge close to me,well my heart actually, everyday.
that means i agree to it aint it?
especially those people who would just STARE at you with those
"i wanna eat you like right now" faceeeee and those eyes moreover tease you.
and you,being helpless will just give the "w t f" faceee.
or who would just shoved you aside or throw tantrums at you fr no reasons?
or just give attitude and you feel like smacking that person hard on the face.
and watch them stumble and fall then bleed.
*sighs.
dont you people think staring is rude and rude is mean.
you'll hurt people.
big fat meanie!
why cant everyone live this wonderful life in peace and harmony uhh?
enjoy the moments living in this Earth before th end of time.
hm.

"so what if i aint as pretty as you, at least i have a face!"
apa tengok tengok bisik bisik?
bole datang cakap face to face kan?
tak yah nak mengumpat belakang orang ingat orang tak tau.
buat tambah dosaa sahajaa.
hmph!
perangai uh anakanak zaman sekarang!

um.
today was SUPER draggy and tiring nak mampos.
lessons were average.
THAT average that i feel so super lethargic during lessons (:
hah, still, i put up a fight with my ever so heavy eyelids that are forever
wanting to shut itself ;D
haha,obviously,i winnn!

and im so proud of myself today
for having to do 2 science practical at one day
WITHOUT being super blurrr nak mampos! (:

im supposed to do POA homework now tau.
but,hah,later.

ohhhh!
my school shoe convert religion uhh(:
now on th top of my right school shoe,theres like a red blot stain.
haha, i saw it and immediately turn to Azlin sayaang and said
"hah, my shoe da convert religion...to Hindi i think. is that a religion?"
haha, at least she smiled uh!
oke,sudah,lame.

today i love geography lesson.
well,i love every lesson with SOFIA AINI around (:

H:"go to hell!"
S:"go heaven!"
H"uh,yea.oke"
S:"ya,then you look below and see sofia suffer then cannot take it and jump down share sufferings together. then you jump down come to hell. haha,then the heaven people will shout,'STU-PID!' uh"
H:"haha,yeaaaaaa,tau tak per!"

its not funny here. but i swear th way she said it. . .hehhhhhh! :D

and another.
H:*points this ugly animal to sofia "this is sofia!"
S: "F YOU B*TCH!"

hahahah!
sofia and her stupid accent! xD

LOVES ;D

maybe my blog needs a new skin.
haha! (:

i aint to get involved in foolish LOVE crimes.
i'm not here for your entertainment.

"when your life is currently living on life support.
and you can hardly breathe."

NATIONAL POLICE ANNUAL PARADE
WAS AWESOME! (:
me likey!
i'll upload photos soon.
when im not lazy and when you're lucky ;D

i had a great time with NADHILAH! FATHIAH! SHIREEN! (:
well, almost.
because we went separate ways thereafter.
*sighs.
but it was nice.
saw a couple of FIs during the HRC the other day. (:
"looking good eyy?"

ohhhhhhhh.
i publish this here before.
but i aint gonna care/mind posting this again.
as this serves the reason why i was at NPAP on Saturday :D

JURONGVILLE NPCC IS


i aint boasting about it,
but it is definately a 'something' to be proud of. ;D

backtracking.
remember.
all the happiness and sorrows we went through together.
all the misconceptions and the misunderstandings.
our MAJOR problem, MISCOMMUNICATION.
our tears, our hardwork, our pride our CCA.
th only NPCC graduates of year 2009. ;D
Cadet Leaders of 2008.
remember those punishments, scoldings lectures.
put downs dissapointment we have to bare to clinch a gold.
every single sweat, it was worthwhile.
we've made a stand, we've prove to others,
we are not just another ordinary 'no-quality' CCA.
but we are something. ;D
and we made history,
most importantly.
we gain experience and brotherhood.

I LOVE National Police Cadet Corps
more than i love my lifeee ;D

too bad, my journey as a cadet
ends as a Staff Sargent.
god knows how much i actually wants Station Inspector.
but,i wasnt the outstanding one.
someone else is more deserving.
well,obviously.
i never really shine.
heh, malu uhh! (oke,sofia sayang will get pissed) ;D
and will go like.
"see uh yo! lack of self esteem!"
haha, oke,so thats the remark i ALWAYS get everytime i
have no guts to answer or do stuffs
and she will push me forward.
haha,
yeap.
thats her, my true friend ;D
haha, hanna luffles sofiaaa! ;D
and thnks fr th maths tutoring! (:

school.
um.
above average.
apart from teachers forever throwing practise papers
and past years exam papers like funfair.
school is fun! ;D
a n w, i know teachers are doing so fr MY own benefit.
not that tehy have nothing better to do and they need
more stuff to mark. ;D

im doing AWESOMEly well at English! (:
i kindda Aceee my English Mock Exam.

im handling Higher Malay very well now. ;D
well,at least im trying.

mathematics.
not really a pain in the arse anymore.
well at times.
but the practices i did and mrs neo gave,
give me this sense of satisfaction
i have NEVER EVER FOREVER NEVER felt
in my whole entire life when i face mathematics.
oke,minus PSLE (:
i've been passing my maths test!
at least i failed one,and thats vectors.
*sighs.

combine humanities.
its pretty complicated actually.
shove THAT asideeee.

Science, physics and chemistry.
getting a hang on physics.
but chemistry.
i will work harder (:

whatelse, ummm.

Principles of Accounts.
i know,when my neighbours saw me wit th THICK book.
they'll go, "YOU TAKE ACCOUNTS?"
haha, but hey!
im doing well,
at least.
Correction Of Errors can bizz of la eh! ;D

Food&Nutrition.
my favourite.
but im SUPERRR SLACKING in the coursework ;D
haha,
push yrself thorugh ths hanna! (:

Mid years are just around th corner.
they are like playing BOO-CHAK
with me (:
kindda freak me out la oi.

but MID YEAR EXAMINATION,
i will pull myself together
and push myself through this (:
this is only the beginning hanna.
JYJY!
youuu can do it.
well obviously.

moreover i believe in
"miracles and big dreams come true as nothing is impossible."
andddd.
"have hope,faith and believe"
and to add to that.
"WORK A LITTLE MORE HARDER.
when you think you've work hard enough, work even harder"
and.
"pray to god (:"
oh,i love god i love allah (:

haha.
im gonna get some sleeeep now!(:

check out my cheeks!
RED kan?
macam those anime characters yang blush. ;D
that was when i just complete HRC ;D
y'know,spending the whole dayy at Pulau Ubin.
i had fun though theres one part i got entangled at the cable, and i cried(?)
haha! ;D
i loves flying fox! ;D

i didnt attend school today.
damn you,fever!
seriously cant even get up.
and its like,this fever came suddenly.
one day i was super fine and the next
i keep sneezing and coughing.
my sister says,my tonsils are swollen.
like her,few years back.
is it really is swollen?
o m g uhh! D:



haha,new LOVE ;D
meet, Christofer Drew.

and now my another NEW love is
my guitar ;D
hehhh!
got a new one.
and im thinking of repairing my black onee. ;D
because it needs to get repaired or something?
haha,apa apa la ;D

IM DONE READING BREAKING DAWN!
FINALLY! ;D

afraid to get involved with
silly LOVE games.
im sorry,boy.
dont come to me.
i dont offer my heart anymore.

It this isn’t love, tell me what it is
‘Cause I could be dreaming or just plain crazy
It this isn’t love, tell me what it is
‘Cause I never felt like this baby
If this isn’t love

L O V E, what is in me
L O V E, oh if this isn’t love
L O V E, what is in me
LO V E, oh if this isn’t love

if this isnt love, Jennifer Hudson


"actually i am in love"
"art is perfection.perfection is love.love is art."

i cant stand your perfection.
as i stand back and admire.
i cant help myself but to wish.
wish you were mine.
take a step back.
and another.
then another.
followed by another step.
and i fall all th way back.
with your perfection.
and my flaws.
we two wont work well.
a line of girls.
and you.
what is it in me,
that will win your heart.
im not one of those girls,
you will fall in love with.
but still,im hoping.
though i know, i will meet disappointment.
so,i will stop.
stop looking for love.
because i still yearn for your perfection.
and im fall way too back.
for you to notice me.
for me to catch your attention.

"i think i am in love"

HRC is niceyyy nice nice! ;D
im tannn after spending th whole day in th sun at Pulau Ubin.
Pei Chye guyyy(sp?)
*DROOOOOLS

i tried Advanced Rope Elements,
and i got stuck at the cables.
my hand legs and whatever are all over the cables uhhh. ;D
completely entangled! ;D
i hang on to the ladder for tooo looong.
now my arms are superrrr numbbbb.
andddd i got bruised! D:

i tried the jump off th pole to catch this hanging thingy.
and th male instructor said "its good being small,you get to go first"
haha,
*I,instructor, H,me! ;D

I:"baca doa uh!"
H:"Doa apa sehh!"
I:"apa-apa, doa qunut?"
H:"bukan subuh sehh!"
I:"um,doa makan?"
H:"belum lagi nak makan!"
I:"tau doa panjat?"
H:"doa panjat? huh? tak tau? ada ke doa panjat? "
I:"ada, ikut saya baca ehh?"
H:"um,k."
I:"Bismillahirrahmannirrahim"
H:"Bismillahirrahmannirrahim"
I:"PAAAAAAAAAAN-JAAAAAAAT!"
H:"TSK! NONSENSE SEHHH!"

and when i come up,hang on th pole and got brought down
i kept of giggling and laughing uh.
then another male instructor was like.

I:"Macam mana perasaan awak lepas terjun?"
H:"uh? bole la,numbb,tak rasa apa apa"
I:"saya tengok awak kat atas macam ada benda kelakar. ada benda kelakar ke?"
H:"uh? tak ada la. kenapa?"
I:"awak macam ada penyakit pelik."
H:"penyakit pelik?"
I:"a'ahhh,awak tak berhenti-henti ketawa ajaaaa."
H:"hehhh! ehh? hahaha! da biasa laa."
I:"pelikkkkk!"

hahaha.

and i tried, Dangle Duo.
i dont know i was so super flexible that i can climp up logs so far apart! ;D
haha, DESPITE BEING SHORT!

anddd flying fox!
nice nice nice! ;D

"let me guess,your name has a 'Nur' in it."
"uhhh,not exactly,theres a Nurul actually"
"ye laa,same la,still 'Nur'"
"uh yeaa."
"relax, you look like as if you're trying to shake off the nervousness"
"uh? hah. how'd you know?"
"i just know"

hahaha.

ohh!
i got a trademark sign! ;D

\m/

ask thos peopleeeee! ;D
kan iLah kan?
kan aisha kan?
kan halidah kan?
hahaha. ;D

"stop it uh. tak mau perangai uh!"

i bake today!
POTATO SCONES! ;D
like those biscuits in Popeye! ;D
hahaha, and it was a success!
bringing some to school tmr kot ;D

aku oke,aku bahagia.
aku CUN SAJA. ;D

aku kini damai bersama bintang.
yang membawa ku ke ruang angkasa.
bermain diantara bintang-bintang yang berkelipan.
kebahagiaan bagai mimpi.
mimpi yang terlalu indah.

kebahagiaan,
ku pohon.
jangan pergi dari aku lagi.
aku kini tenang.
kebahagiaan,
jangan biar duka membelenggu.
aku ingin gembira hingaa ke akhir masa.
kebahagiaan,
tak akan aku melepas kan mu.
kerana kau akan selalu ada dalam genggaman ku.

duka,
pergi dari hidup ku.
duka,
usah kembali lagi.
duka,
aku sudah bahagia.
tangisanku sudah tidak kedengaran lagi.
air mata tidak mengalir lagi.
aku sungguh gembira.
duka,
akan kau aku lepas kan.
sudah serik aku bersamamu.
sudah puas aku menemaniku.
duka,
ku pohon.
perginya engkau,
ketabahan akan datang.

Tuhan,
ujianmu,
tidak sedikit pun menggoncang keimanan ku.
namun,ia membuatku lebih tabah.
Tuhan,
aku telah temui hikmah,
diatas segala yang berlaku.
aku telah memulihkan persahabatan
yang telah terhambat kerana kepentingan diri
ku sendiri.
aku telah jumpa kebahagiaan sekali lagi.
dan aku tahu,kali ini.
aku sungguh bahagia.
Tuhan,
bahagiakan la dirinya,
seperti mana kau membahagiakan diriku ini.
temuikan la dirinya kepada kegembiraan.
Tuhan,
ku panjatkan doa ini.
untuk berterima kasih.
kerana engkau la,aku wujud di atas bumi yang engkau cipta
serba indah dengan ketabahan serta bahagia.
besertakan cinta,kasih dan sayang.

sesungguhnya.
onak berduri dan lautan api telah berjaya aku tempuhi.
sesungguhnya.
hidupku sudah kembali pulih.
sesungguhnya,
keperitanku sudah berakhir.

life is NOT a pain in th arse anymore.
life's been great.
really really GREAT.
and im not being sarcastic or what.
but life is niceeeeeeee. ;D

i was so happy a girl today.
and yes.
i laughed alot today.
like alot alot. ;D

hanna LOVES to main with Sofia and Wei Xiang
Hang Man/"Wheel Of Fortune" during maths lesson ;D
haha.
they really made my day.
seriously uhhhh. ;D

and i SMILED alot today.
;D

and now i feel like SMILING REALLY WIDEEE!
*GRINNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNS ;D

im moving along strong now.
thnk you very much.
haha.

i went to school today telling the Grace Orchard incident
to sofia aini and aisha and nadhilah.
haha.
and suddenly i feel super offended D:
haha, its oke aunty, i forgive you.

told Reee and he was like super kecohhhhhhhh uh.
haha
stop it uh with
"student dari Grace Orachrd School uhhhh!"
andddd
"kau bukan macam ada learning disabilities, kau da memang da!"

haha,
stop it la.
tak mo perangai uhhh! ;D

i have HRC tmr!
High Ropes Challenge.
y'know stuffs like jumping diwn a 7 storey building on a cable.
haha and climb herre and there.
i get to be SUPERWOMAN uhhh! ;D
and i want to screaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaam my lungs out.
when i jump down.
haha,all out uhh hanna! ;D

and i have to report to school at 6:45 am! ;D
and the thing ends at 6:30pm? ;D
haha.
YAY!
pulau ubin lagi! ;D
hahahaha
me likeyy!

and i seriously need some sleep ;D
because esok i need to wake up at FIVE THIRTY EEEHH EMMMM tmr uhhh! ;D
hahahah!
omigoshhhhy ;D

*SPAZZESSSSSSSSSSSSSSS! ;D




"we'll make things better for both of us.
we will be best friends.
but dont expect more.
and im very sorry
for whatever i did to you in th past.
and am glad that you and i are friends"


"aku dissapointed ngan kau.
i though you wont at all be influenced.
but i thought wrong.
you are same like th others.
you did that just to be cool.
and you can even do it infront of me?
when once you told me,you hate this group of people.
and you know how i hate those things.
cuba sekali,aku tak nak cuba lagi.
and you did it infront of my freaking eyes.
the temptation the urge to try it again.
tak moh nak perangai uh pat sini.
kau aku kawan sehhh.
anddd kau buat ini semua pikir cool ke pa?
musnahkan diri sendiri ada la.
stop it uhhh.
jangan perangai uhhh."

you just play along with the game.
though you have not a single idea of what is
LOVE.

i went to MacDonald with sofia aini and sherra.
and i hadddd a hell loads of timeee together lauging uhh! ;D
sherra want a wedding with butterflies and spiders with monkeys.
haha. ;D

i went home.
at th 335 bus stop near Grace Orchard.
and people was looking at me like im some kind of freak?
haha,i swear i was looking at th mirror countless times.
then this auntie approached me.
and talk.
lets call her A and im H k? ;D

A: hows school?
H:er,fine?
A:New school?
H:huh? no. we will be changing next year? to the old boon lay secondary there.
A:huh? thats yr new school right? *points to Grace Orchard School.
H:what? err. no!
A:then what school yoo from?
H:um,Jurongville.
A:ohhh,im so so sorry. i thought you went to school there.
H:haha. oh,its oke.

w t h?
do i look like a Grace Orchard Student.
i mean.
my school uniform dont look anything like that school uhh.
haha.
stop it uh with Grace Orchard school uhhh! ;D

tmr.
the JVCB people are off for SYF.
and i wish them ALL TH BEST! ;D
hahahaha.
good luck people! ;D

i seriously dont know what to blog now uh.
my sister is telling me a story.
and laughing her ass off.
dengan SEMANGAT NYA!
and here i am,not really listening to her.
and just grinning.
haha,she looks stupid.
oh.
she realise she does look stupiddd ;D

haha,oke.
toodles people.

in life.
you either live it.
or
you leave it.

then you die.
well, at least you do.
soon.

"But if i still believe you love me
Maybe i'll survive
So i tell myself you're coming home
Like you've done a million times
And if it's alright
I'll still be loving you
'cause i can't break it to my heart"
-i cant break it to my heart, delta goodrem

lifes been kindda nice today.
theres change of sitting arragement.
i swear im gonna miss sofia aini.
but i have to live with it.
im sitting with Clar and Jaryl. ;D
hahaha.
Jaryl lagii,da macam last year ;D
but its oke.
changes are nice.

did i tell yooo?
last saturday was my sajak competition thingyy. ;D
though we didnt win.
i hadddd loadssss of funn with th casts and crew ;D
so thnks.
hunny(!!), norryn(!!),aini(!), ismail(!), ridzuan(!), akif(!), ahmad(!)
and my super girls.
azlin(!!) anddddd nadhirah(!!)
hehhh.
sayaaaang kamu orang semuaaaa ;D
i know you people miss those times we spend together as a TEAM.
but every good things,will come to an end.
one day.
soon.

ohhh,its that time of th month.
and im so so so sure.
im so gonna have mood swings.
so im sorry if i will just snap at yoo for no apparent reason ;D
haha.
im being moody nowdays.

ohhh!
its april fools today!
and i got trick-ed/prank-ed
eleven time.
despite shouting, "jokeee da basii uhhh!"
gazillions of times!
haha,i still fall fr it. ;D
hanna,hanna.

good news oi! ;D
i passed my Physics test on Static Electricity and i d k another chapter,but on electricity jugaaak.
14/25 oi! ;D
hahaha.
aku bangga sangat!

life is evil.
ironically.
people live it to th fullest.